Almost as soon as I found out I was pregnant, I began to research the Internet to educate myself on the next step in my life journey. One of the many controversial topics I came across was postpartum depression. I thought to myself, that could never happen to me! I would be so overcome with joy that I could have no room in my heart for sadness. My heart would be so full, it could never been empty. Nine mothers later, I look back on my postpartum journey to gain clarity on my mental and emotional state.